… I think I will always remain jealous of your pretty ex-girlfriend.

Yesterday, my cousin relieved me from my duties as a bridesmaid in her wedding.

I was not helping enough and apparently gave off a “I’m not committed to this or willing to help out” vibe. I blame the lack of communication. I should’ve kept in touch, but at the same time… how do you know that I’m not willing to help out when you really haven’t asked me for help with anything since the invitations?

What hurts more than that whole “Hey, you suck as a bridesmaid.” thing is the fact that she didn’t even approach or call me to tell me, “Hey, you suck as a bridesmaid. I need you to do more or I’m going with someone else.”   … Nope. None of that. My cousin ( who ended her note with a “in the end, we’re still family…” [insert sneer here] ) instantly replaced me with someone else and let me know via facebook message.

- nyquil
- puffs with lotion
- tea
- sleep
- pixar movies on dvd

I had a week off after Christmas. I planned to do laundry, clean up, switch bedrooms, mail gifts, exercise, and post random lists about 2009. … I didn’t do any of it. My week off involved Super Mario Brothers for the Wii, lots of good food, lots of movie and tv watching, and sex. So here is the only list I managed to come up with.

A list of 12 songs: One song that I overplayed for every month in 2009
[the entire playlist]

January
Conor Oberst – NYC Gone, Gone

February
Television Room – Coffee Houses

March
Devendra Banhart – Lover

April
Stars – Today Will Be Better, I Swear!

May
Paul Westerberg – Whatever Makes You Happy

June
Neko Case – This Tornado Loves You

July
Phoenix – 1901

August
Pixies – Here Comes Your Man

September
Mumm-Ra – She’s Got You High

October
Feist – I Feel It All

November
Van Morrison – Sweet Thing

December
Los Campesinos! – You! Me! Dancing!